Time Flies When Your Having Fun

I've noticed that since I've been in treatment. Time flies AND stands still. I feel like we've been doing this forever but when I think about we've only been doing this since July. Sometimes the days blend together. Other days never end but time just keeps on passing. I can't believe its February. My sister is having her baby in about 2 months. The school year is more than half way over. The holidays were a wash. I turned 34. Its 55 degrees today. That's almost spring! I told my husband how I feel about the weird time thing; that we didn't really have holidays, and then he wished me a happy Valentine's Day. I totally forgot. He just hugged me. I never really liked Valentine's Day anyway. But that's beside the point. My good friends were talking about going on vacation, planning for next year..."Let's save money in a vacation account and go someplace nice. Just us girls." That's the best idea I've heard in a long time. Thinking that far ahead is nearly impossible? I don't know where I'll be! Maybe I'll be a mom... It's hard to plan or commit to anything because of the timing, when will I ovulate, will that weekend be the one that I'll need to be inseminated? Will I have to go to the doctor during treatment?  I don’t know what is going on in the world.  I don’t keep up with current events.  I don’t know who is winning on American idol (can’t stand that show but people keep asking me about it!).   I’m lucky I know the date.  So I plan to make no plans. I'm content with my books, house projects, my wonderful husband, my 3 doggies and Netflix streaming (thank God for that).